I got married in 2016 in Pakistan and I made a promise to myself that after moving to KSA, the first order of business would be to perform Haj in 2017 no matter what. I had such a strong intention of keeping that promise that Allah did call us in 2017 to undertake the most sacred journey of our life.
I started preparing for Haj a month before we had to depart. I won’t say that the journey was easy because it’s never suppose to be. The weather was exceedingly hot, mina camps were over-crowded, I can hear kids crying from nearby camps, waiting in queue to get food but eating less to avoid getting sick, doing zikr all the time and getting myself ready for all the rituals ahead because I knew it’s going to be extremly tough, getting a bottle of laban spill over my abaya and shoes at Arafat when I was leaving for Jabal-e-rehmet but I continued walking for around 30 to 45 min towards the hill in scorching heat to make sure I say all my duas because this was the golden opportunity and I just cannot let it go, getting sick on Arafat day, searching for food in Muzdalifah because couldn’t find any food stop and then suddenly caught a man selling Albaik (happiness at its peak), coming back to Mina and then preparing to leave for Rami which was around 45 minutes walk from our camp, and finally getting out from the state of Ihram on the day of eid. Left Mina to perform tawaf-e-Wida with tears in my eyes and then back home.
It’s the most incredible feeling ever in this world when you realise that you have finally made it to the end, all your struggles and hardships were worth it because you came out of it as a new born baby with all your sins forgiven. My heart was at peace and full of gratitude. Allah is indeed most merciful and forgiving.
When I think over it, the highlight of my whole journey was when on the day of Arafat, sky opened up and it started to drizzle at Asar time followed by cool wind breeze after an extremly tough and hot day . I offered my Asar prayer and while offering Salah, my eyes filled with unshed tears and my heart with pure joy. I asked for HIS forgiveness, asked him to bless me with a child which was accepted later in the same year 😊 and thanked HIM for his countless blessings. I simply cannot lay out in words how I felt at that particular moment. The whole situation was magnificent when I saw everyone leaving their camps to enjoy the weather, offering Asar prayer under an open sky, tears in everyone’s eyes but a smile on their faces. It was such a beautiful moment in time. فَبِأَيِّ آلاءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ
The next best thing was lying on Muzdalifah plains, starring at the sky and realizing that it was our first nikkah anniversary and we couldn’t ask for anything better than to be at that place on that day.
We went with “Siddiqui Haj Group” and all the arrangements made by them were quiet satisfactory.
May Allah invite all muslims to perform Haj atleast once in their lifetime and make the journey easy for them. Ameen!